little slow here

things been rather quiet down here... i just had my talk with anita today... realise that i got mistakes to rectify on my part... but the main reason why i am blogging down my blogs here instead of my other blog, is cuz i trust this is the safest place for me to view my thoughts...

my whole talk with her make me realise how scary this world is.. people whom u trust to be ur best pals, or ppl u trust to keep secrets with can just play u out any moment... u dont know what they tell others and what others tell them... how true they are to u.. why... why must time and time again the same old shit happened... and every single time it happen it always involves friends who are close to me.. over the years, the parties involved are ppl who are closer to me compared to the previous one... im scared... really... jieying is scared... jieying dunnoe who she can trust anymore... she is afraid of trusting.. is it wrong to confide in people? is it wrong to trust ppl? just feel like going back to my shell.. that shell whereby i dont need to worry about expressing myself to others... over the years i have learnt to open up to ppl.. till now that i dont know how to stop myself from expressing my feelings... but it is scary... cuz it can make me hurt easy.... what shld i do?