emotions are what they call a privilege of a man... choices are what man make... we have this "real" self and "empirical" self... our "real" self is the rational self... that thinks and is responsible... that make the wise decisions we make in life... " empirical" self is the side that we do things on impulses... often cause us to regret our decisions in life...
xinz, there is nth wrong at all with what u are experiencing.. i guess it is part and parcel of life... youyi once told me that life right now is just a rehersal round for all of us... for us to learn and experience... thus knowing and learning what we should know to prepare us for a life in heaven... because in heaven, that is our real life story... many people always say that life is just a stage... there is no rewind or anything... life just goes on... i just learnt from social work class recently about this transition cycle that man will experience when we are in a new situation or face with an obstacles...
the initial feelings we have is anxiety... followed by either happiness or denial [ie avoiding and saying that a problem does not exist].. then we enter a phase of confusion and self blame... in which we will experience fear, threat, guilt and eventually depression.... after we finish through with this phase... we will move on to gradual acceptance of the situation and thus moving forward... how true is this cycle? very true... as i am typing this entry... i am thinking about my life and the obstacles i went through... indeed i always feel such a transition when i am in a sad situation.. somehow everytime i come out of it... so i guess this cycle is pretty true... thus, i feel that this is just a matter of time.. perharps due to the environment that you are currently in... with all those emerging stress that are building up.. hang in there... one more month and you will be done.... embrace all these time you have before you enter the workforce... not much time left if you realise...
look at the blog title... embracing everyday with a smilez.... no one will push you... no one will blame you... a sorry isnt necessary between the three of us anymore.... it do not need to exist... because our friendship have exceeded the word... we have moved into forgiveness... whereby forgiveness is like how God give us grace... it is abundant.. over flowing... and always available... take your time... no one will hurry you.. just embrace every moment of your life...
remember, the sun will still shine every day.... maybe we should all take some time off to embrace that warmth... because it is really what that drives us everyday...
