stranded...

saw clara today. was reading my notes when i heard this familiar voice. yes, it's clara, talking to her frens... after which she walked off, w/o noticing that im nearby. suddenly, i got vy guilt-consciencous. like i dunoe how to face her. hmm... i guess it's bcos of hs. till this point of time, i think im giving each other a chance. Had been happy talking to him, going out and communicating with him recently. Then today i saw clara, and suddenly i was like 'wat m i doing?'... i dunoe how to describe this feeling. It's like ur fren saw this very nice jacket that she likes vy much, but too ex for her to buy, then u juz got ur pay and then decided to go buy it for urself... maybe not a vy good analogy, but get wat i mean?

hmm, i cant imagine wat's her reaction if one day i really accept hs. i wun noe how to face her. imagine the hurt?? yes, i know... kelz said b4 that love has to be selfish... but i guess this will be sth that will be obstructing me n him. i know clara still likes him though she doesnt say it out to me now. well, im still meeting her every thurs to go home tog... how bad/great?? dun wanna put on a mask in front of her, but i guess when im totally clear of wat i want, i will tell/ask her... till then, it's a question mark.